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Innocense VS WTF !!

Is there smthing inside that hurts?
Is there smthing besides what i see that pinches?
May be there is  ignorance out of innocense, but it surely hurts.

There is some times so much we like to talk about and keep on speaking about, but when we keep mum it surely does hurt.

So what is that we can do about it?Or is it a kiddish desire to be able to complain and be reassured?
What ever it is ,being matured smtyms hurts than being just Innocent... Playing the innocent cub isint my choice by any means !

I love you Darling Husband

It definitely feels great to know that there is sm1 so close, and soo true to you.
It definitely feels like heaven to have those words whispered into thy ears , as sweet as honey and as pure as dew.
It definitely feels like no one can compare to plant a kiss of love to confess " Thou shall be loved ever ,until and after i am gone".
It is so dfclt to explain how i have fallen in love with time.I have started mising you now.When there is nobody around or when i am surrounded by people, i am still counting moments that are still left for you to come again.
It is amazing, that i can still feel your presence so fresh.The scent of your skin around , wrapping all corners of my world.Cannot write it all though.
Just want to say i love you Dear Hubby.

Happiness ! Please define.

What does one mean by happiness?
Is it the smile that we have on our face's all the time? Or is it some thing that you feel in the heart ?
I am soo Confused at this time.What should i say? I am happy in my new life.Very happy the way i have shaped it.
If i would have listed to my parents i know i would have been happy but there would not have been a single person i could say what i want to.Now i have sm1 i can always count on.But can i burden him with my thoughts all the time like this? Is this the right way?
I know what seems right is not always right.And looking from the perspective of two different ppl makes a lot of difference.
We come from almost two different worlds.Two hostile worlds and two different ways to look at life.Although it is not wrong to say i have always aspired for great things in life, but this time i choose feelings and sentiments above material accomplishments.This is so because i saw how filthy the world can be.I saw what lies behind those innocent smiles and the sugar coated lines.

I can build great things for myself and my family by my efforts and i know i can do it.I know i am a strong girl and i will work hard for what i want in my life.Till date i have fought my way for what i wanted.I have always aimed at a level above from where i am.It is going to be tough for me this time.Really tough but i will prove my self again.
I know i have to prove many things to ppl around to show them that this decision that i have taken is right.
May God be with me in this journey so that i am able to keep my cool and have patience and preserverance for my aim.
AMEN

Life's Good L Ji

Pyar .. Ek zamana hua samajhtey huey,
aj ek lamhey ney sab kuch samjha diya.
Tere aney ki khabar ne aj phir humko rooh tak mehka diya.

safar bhaut lamba hua,Nazakat sey nazarein milti rahein.
Intezar ki intehan hui aur nadiyan yuhin behti rahi.

Ittefak nahi ye ilzam humpar,Ki aankhein pher ki meri saasein chali.
Hujoom tha sadko per diwanoo ka,aur har rastey pe meri nazarein chali.

Ek haq hi toh na tha ki koi nazaron mei bayan kar dey apni kahani sari,
Jo ankahi hai wo yahan kuch kuch likh kar apna mann behla liya.

Lafzon mei kehna zaroori nahi,Mehsoos maujoodgi se bhi pyar hota hai.
sapno mei ana zaroori nai,har nazar mei deedar -e-yaar hota hai.

Jo samajh jayey wo nadan hai yahan,
Nasamjhi mei kya nadani hai wo kya janey,tasweer dikha do mere yaar ki,
Jo aankhon se bhi na padh sakey,meri ye duniya to sabkey liyey anjani hai.

I am Happy again !

Om Namah Shivayey !!

Today after soo many days, i again feel like the girl i was 1.5 yrs back.

And i do not feel i am a fool to be that ways again.Some how i am happy that i am again becoming the same girl.It is such a nice feeling to know that people still value simplicity of mind and the soul.

Although it is dfclt to believe that such good things are happening to me ;-)

I again want to go to the temple and pray today.I rarely went to any religious place, u know how it is, when u want to go and visit a temple,want to attend the evening chant etc.

Although i prayed, bt sm how was never motivated enough to enter a temple.But today when i feel like the gal i was before, i feel so happy.

This might sound stupid and immatured as sm ppl think i am, bt honestly i am happy today.Having sm bdy in ur life who understands u and values u is so imp. And when u find sm bdy of the kind, life bcms so mch better.

Sm times words are nt enough or so as to say, words cannot explain wat u really feel.I can only say that the best is yet to cm for me.And the best is yet to be discovered.All that i got is wat i ever wanted to have and this is what has again given me a reason to smile.

The Man in my life - Lalit, is the reason why m smiling again.

May God Bless him.I pray for his happiness and health.

F!@#$%^ Lyf.

This is not a poem bt just a thought i wanted to share.
sm times when every thing seems to go wrong and when every thing seems so absurd... it feels as if may b it was destined to b.But we can change the state of affairs,only by efforts and by a willingness to change.
It requires a lot of dedication and hard work.alot of your energy and time.A lot of patience and wat not.
When we feel sad and want to share,ppl think we are a moron who cries over issues everytime and all the tym.But the truth is u can never forget any problem.
yes we all try to cm out of that dark cloudy space bt sm times the struggle alone is just nt enough.
Sm times i wonder why am i struggling? Have i hurt sm1 so badly or is this my fault?sm times i feel tired of fightimg and want to lay back and just dream...
Sm time i feel gd abt wat i got after i faught, sm times i think, why me always .. It is so cnfusng.

i write wen i dn hv any bdy to share my thoghts wd..and now i always write it down.
with tym everything changes.wd time everybdy changes..every bdy has priorities in lyf .
I am so sick and tired of this pretendence.I hv a smile on bt within i know i am nt happy.I hv every thing i wanted bt i am nt contented.
lyf is a roller coaster ride..U try to balance on one end and it takes a u turn again !!!

When u cannot b true to any bdy..u shd b true to ur self.truth dosent mean saying all the right things bt it means telling dem wat u r going through.
I am just trying to b true to myself atleast. dat is wat matters at the end of the day.