Words of my Soul

I love you Darling Husband

2010-11-13T01:29:00.000-08:00

It definitely feels great to know that there is sm1 so close, and soo true to you.
It definitely feels like heaven to have those words whispered into thy ears , as sweet as honey and as pure as dew.
It definitely feels like no one can compare to plant a kiss of love to confess " Thou shall be loved ever ,until and after i am gone".
It is so dfclt to explain how i have fallen in love with time.I have started mising you now.When there is nobody around or when i am surrounded by people, i am still counting moments that are still left for you to come again.
It is amazing, that i can still feel your presence so fresh.The scent of your skin around , wrapping all corners of my world.Cannot write it all though.
Just want to say i love you Dear Hubby.

Happiness ! Please define.

2010-11-06T09:13:00.000-07:00

What does one mean by happiness?
Is it the smile that we have on our face's all the time? Or is it some thing that you feel in the heart ?
I am soo Confused at this time.What should i say? I am happy in my new life.Very happy the way i have shaped it.
If i would have listed to my parents i know i would have been happy but there would not have been a single person i could say what i want to.Now i have sm1 i can always count on.But can i burden him with my thoughts all the time like this? Is this the right way?
I know what seems right is not always right.And looking from the perspective of two different ppl makes a lot of difference.
We come from almost two different worlds.Two hostile worlds and two different ways to look at life.Although it is not wrong to say i have always aspired for great things in life, but this time i choose feelings and sentiments above material accomplishments.This is so because i saw how filthy the world can be.I saw what lies behind those innocent smiles and the sugar coated lines.

I can build great things for myself and my family by my efforts and i know i can do it.I know i am a strong girl and i will work hard for what i want in my life.Till date i have fought my way for what i wanted.I have always aimed at a level above from where i am.It is going to be tough for me this time.Really tough but i will prove my self again.
I know i have to prove many things to ppl around to show them that this decision that i have taken is right.
May God be with me in this journey so that i am able to keep my cool and have patience and preserverance for my aim.
AMEN

Life's Good L Ji

2010-08-26T10:55:00.000-07:00

Pyar .. Ek zamana hua samajhtey huey,
aj ek lamhey ney sab kuch samjha diya.
Tere aney ki khabar ne aj phir humko rooh tak mehka diya.

safar bhaut lamba hua,Nazakat sey nazarein milti rahein.
Intezar ki intehan hui aur nadiyan yuhin behti rahi.

Ittefak nahi ye ilzam humpar,Ki aankhein pher ki meri saasein chali.
Hujoom tha sadko per diwanoo ka,aur har rastey pe meri nazarein chali.

Ek haq hi toh na tha ki koi nazaron mei bayan kar dey apni kahani sari,
Jo ankahi hai wo yahan kuch kuch likh kar apna mann behla liya.

Lafzon mei kehna zaroori nahi,Mehsoos maujoodgi se bhi pyar hota hai.
sapno mei ana zaroori nai,har nazar mei deedar -e-yaar hota hai.

Jo samajh jayey wo nadan hai yahan,
Nasamjhi mei kya nadani hai wo kya janey,tasweer dikha do mere yaar ki,
Jo aankhon se bhi na padh sakey,meri ye duniya to sabkey liyey anjani hai.

I am Happy again !

2010-08-26T10:24:00.000-07:00

Om Namah Shivayey !!

Today after soo many days, i again feel like the girl i was 1.5 yrs back.

And i do not feel i am a fool to be that ways again.Some how i am happy that i am again becoming the same girl.It is such a nice feeling to know that people still value simplicity of mind and the soul.

Although it is dfclt to believe that such good things are happening to me ;-)

I again want to go to the temple and pray today.I rarely went to any religious place, u know how it is, when u want to go and visit a temple,want to attend the evening chant etc.

Although i prayed, bt sm how was never motivated enough to enter a temple.But today when i feel like the gal i was before, i feel so happy.

This might sound stupid and immatured as sm ppl think i am, bt honestly i am happy today.Having sm bdy in ur life who understands u and values u is so imp. And when u find sm bdy of the kind, life bcms so mch better.

Sm times words are nt enough or so as to say, words cannot explain wat u really feel.I can only say that the best is yet to cm for me.And the best is yet to be discovered.All that i got is wat i ever wanted to have and this is what has again given me a reason to smile.

The Man in my life - Lalit, is the reason why m smiling again.

May God Bless him.I pray for his happiness and health.

F!@#$%^ Lyf.

2010-03-20T08:09:00.000-07:00

This is not a poem bt just a thought i wanted to share.
sm times when every thing seems to go wrong and when every thing seems so absurd... it feels as if may b it was destined to b.But we can change the state of affairs,only by efforts and by a willingness to change.
It requires a lot of dedication and hard work.alot of your energy and time.A lot of patience and wat not.
When we feel sad and want to share,ppl think we are a moron who cries over issues everytime and all the tym.But the truth is u can never forget any problem.
yes we all try to cm out of that dark cloudy space bt sm times the struggle alone is just nt enough.
Sm times i wonder why am i struggling? Have i hurt sm1 so badly or is this my fault?sm times i feel tired of fightimg and want to lay back and just dream...
Sm time i feel gd abt wat i got after i faught, sm times i think, why me always .. It is so cnfusng.

i write wen i dn hv any bdy to share my thoghts wd..and now i always write it down.
with tym everything changes.wd time everybdy changes..every bdy has priorities in lyf .
I am so sick and tired of this pretendence.I hv a smile on bt within i know i am nt happy.I hv every thing i wanted bt i am nt contented.
lyf is a roller coaster ride..U try to balance on one end and it takes a u turn again !!!

When u cannot b true to any bdy..u shd b true to ur self.truth dosent mean saying all the right things bt it means telling dem wat u r going through.
I am just trying to b true to myself atleast. dat is wat matters at the end of the day.

Voice of my "HEART" (17.05.2009)

2009-08-01T00:25:00.000-07:00

How i long to hear u,only once..
To say that i Miss u..
And then,When i say it all..
Still there's sm thing left unspoken .

How i miss the honey in your words for me,
And i dont blame anybdy else than me,
For its Me who stops it all before you start to say,
Sweetheart I Missed u a lot !!!

I love it when you guide me through,
Like a frnd i can just pour on all my thoughts on to you,
I lv it when you silently say "I Care"..

It's amazing how you hv made me fall in love,
Its amazing how you hv done it all,
No promises to keep and no rules to break,
I feel so Free, i can fly Without wings..

And this is not all, That i have to say,
Words are lost in my thoughts about you,
How i long to say it all bt then just smile,
I want to say i care..
Bt the shy lover inside pursuades to just write..
And here is wat i could nt express !!!

"LET Me EmBrAce ThE WoRld"

2009-07-15T01:08:00.000-07:00

Let me embrace the world,
With its beauty,With its amazing sun,
Coolness of moonlight,
And the Twinkling of its Stars..

I want to Embrace the Sea,
I love the Blue Water,
I Love the waves so huge,
I Love the Dolphins so Sweet,
And I Love it for its Elegance.

I Love the Moon,
With its golden Aura,
I Love the Stars twinkling the night Away,
I Love the sun Shining bright on the Horizen,
I Love the Clouds and the Rain,
I Love the Thunder and its Noise..
I Love it when the SnowFlakes Colour everything White..

I Love the Evergreen Forests,
And the Rain Forests too,
The Various Life forms and
The Rainbow seen just above those mountains..

I love the tough Mountains,
For they stand firmly Always,
They Face all the winds and all storms,
The hills too,
For they Teach us to be Humble yet Strong !!!

I Love the Desert,
and I Love the Oasis too,
it simply teaches us to Adapt,and
How apt an example is dat..

This beautiful World Seems like a Miracle to me,
Full of Beauty and Wonders,
Most Precious thing anybdy could ever hv in a life time,
Let me Embrace it "Let Me Embrace The World"...

Lovely NI8

2009-07-15T00:30:00.000-07:00

Deep Dark Clouds in the Sky tonight,
The lost stars and the Moon,
Together hv made the Night so Exotic..

With Thunder and Lightening,
Here and there..now and then,
I feel the rythm of the song,
that the clouds sing for their sky tonight..

Its beautiful how the moon hides itself behind those clouds,
and enjoys the game of hide and seek,
only to Woo the waves of the Sea,
To let its Darling Earth bathe with its love..

Near to Dawn,
clouds start showering their love on their beloved earth..
All is beautiful,
The moon then moves away.. To come again another Day!!!

Mornings are beautiful Bright and sunny, But..
All i love is the Pretty Moon,
i wait alll day long to meet him again..

To Tell him all about the day and then i leave him alone,
to let him admire his love "The Earth"

Blessed is the earth,
To be Loved, Be admired for her Silence..

All that makes the NI8 lovely is..
The Selfless Love of My Darling Moon,
Earth Shines in its coolness,
Love blossomes in the Silver rays,
This makes the NI8 a "Lovely NI8"..

EyEs Dat SpEaK !!!

2009-07-13T22:49:00.000-07:00

My Eyes Dat Speak of The lovely Love,
My Eyes Dat Speak of The tender Love Bygone,
My Eyes Dat Speak of the Moments Dat hv just gone by,
My Eyes speak of the Journey of my life...

How in moments of Respite and moments of Pain,
I feel Them Crying with me..
And when I Am Happy,
I feel them Twinkling and Dancing With me..

My Eyes are the witness of all that I've seen.
True Friends as they are, I shall never Get one Again..

My eyes Dat Still remember the innocense of your Eyes,
Still In my Eyes,
I hv your Smile,
Your Radient Face,
And I still remember You Looking at me..

All the scenes from our Past vividly Beset in my eyes.
Yes My Eyes Speak of all those Moments,
Of all the Joys,
Of all the Happiness,
Of all Dat I Want to Say..

I need No Words,
No Secret Ways to Show U,
Only if U can Read My *Eyes Dat Speak* !!!

THE WORDS OF MY SOUL 4 "U" (7.7.2009)

2009-07-08T22:30:00.000-07:00

Flowing through the air,
Invisible,Unheard.....
Are The Words Of My Soul,
but yes you can feel the rythm,
If..Only if u love me..

Around you,in every wind that blows past by,
In every word that you never heard... Are the Words Of My Soul....

In every moment of our past,
In every Second That has gone,
In every Breath that we took Are... The Words Of My Soul

In every glance that you never saw,
in every timid expression of my love,
That you never understood...
In every way that i showed "I care", those which went unnoticed..
Are The Words Of my Soul..

In every thing that i did,
To make you Happy,
To make you Feel Special,
To let you know how i feel happy to be with you,
In all that holds no Meaning for you.. Are The Words Of My Soul

And here i am,
Now, Trying to tell you,
Again explain What you meant to me..

Those Expressions,Words which..
You will never see,
Never hear,
Never read,
Never know- It was written for you,
Are The Words Of My Soul.. For YOU

The Promise ( 7.7.2009)

2009-07-08T22:14:00.000-07:00

How was that?
When i first heard you?
When i first heard your name?
And when we became friends?

I wonder sometimes,
was that Magical?
Something mysterious?
Smthing That i cannot understand "How"..

And that one Promise you gave me,
Yes i still remember,
What you said,
It was Truely amazing..

How i came to believe you,
Gave in all faith in you,
And slowly gave so much more,
Yes now i wonder,Why did i try to accept everything that was related to you..

"I Will Never Let A Tear Come To Your Eye !!!"

That is what i still remember,
A smile always spreads on my face,whenever i remember you saying that..

And then a teat rolls down my cheeks,
With a smile on my lips,
And i dont know what to say...

Some memories never fade away,
And some like these are what we live for..

How can i forget it?
How can i forget your Promise?

Your Smile :-) ( 03.07.2009)

2009-07-03T22:24:00.000-07:00

Whenever i see you smile,
All i want is to hold the time right there.

To stop the wind from blowing,
Stop all waves in the sea, and
Summon the globe to never spin again.

How you smile with a twinkle in your eyes,
Which makes my heart melt with love.

The way you look at me,
When you share your smile with me..
I love it when you silently say " You Are Mine"...

I can feel my heart beating faster,
When there is a hint of your love in your words..

And how i think about it all the time,
When you are not near..

Yes i miss it,When we are not together..
With all my heart i silently Pray..

And in all my prayers,
All i want is Your Smile,
Coz it just takes all my pain away..

25.05.2009

2009-06-30T01:48:00.000-07:00

Why cant i just cry today?
It is my life and something has happened..

How i want to, again today, bring some of those tears back to my eyes..
To feel that pain in my heart, and
To feel that sorrow again..

Why cant i cry today?
Have i lost my sense of bein affiliated?
Or is it that,
I just fail to accept what's going on?

Am i confuse about my life?
What am i now expected to do?
What are my expectations?

It is a situation one would never want to be in..
And i just want to get out of it all..

25.05.2009

2009-06-30T01:39:00.000-07:00

The world seeemed so beautiful when i looked at it from your eyes..
All my dreams had come true..

How i longed to be with a person who is just like you..
I like it when u dont care What i do,
Dont care what i say..

But,suddenly, Do i like it when you dont care who i am?
Do i really accept whatever you say?

Suddenlt today, i wonder
Is that you who i thought i liked in you?

Today when i think of the day i thought
my life is heading in the righ direction..i feel i am lost.

Begone are the days
When i was happy and cheerful..
I smile to give myself a breath again,
and all i want is to just vanish into the unknown..

25.05.2009

2009-06-30T01:24:00.000-07:00

It is a world , i never imagined could exist,
It is a story, i never knew could exist,
It is a puzzle, i did'nt know..could not be solved,
It is just something i have never thought about,
Could not accept..
could never relate with,
It is what comes like a shock from within.

Can it ever happen to me?
Can i be a culprit of fate?
Can i not know,now what should i do?

Everything seems so unpleasent and,
all i want is to cry my heart out to some one i love,
Nothing more i want,
All i want is to just be "ME"..

1.06.2009

2009-06-30T01:14:00.000-07:00

What is happening in my life?
Is it that which i always wanted?
Is it that i Dreamt about?
What is it exactly?
Have i ever imagined?

I never wanted it to be a part of my life,
i never Dreamt about it,
How i wanted my life to be?
I never wanted it to be so dark..

I thought i deserved happiness,
I was worth somebodies smile,
I thought life would be fun,
I thought life would be happy..

BUt now..
Have i got up from my years long slumber?
Now do i really have to face this world?
Do i really need to open my eyes?

What have times shown?
Some thing i just never wanted..

1.06.2009

2009-06-30T00:53:00.000-07:00

Suddenly , all words just dont exist,
for me,the world seems wordless,
It is a mute world,where
I can never express.

Do i really have to be so numb?
M i a stone?
So i will not have anything to say?

I am a human and i have my thoughts too,
I also feel the right and the wrong,
but do i really care about how i feel?

Why should i blindly honour your decision?
I have something to say u know,
M not that gross ,and..
I simply want to say... It is my life too,
And i also Care..

16.06.2009

2009-06-30T00:12:00.000-07:00

How i wish to see you,
every where around,
In everything i do,
and in every glance.

How i wish to hear from you,
more often than obvious,
In every voice that strikes me,
In every sound that comes from far.

I have totally given in,
and you are not goin anywhere out of my head,
and i wonder, where do i go now,
to let you out of my mind.

Hope it happens some day,
and one fine day i again,
find myself back to where i was,
In my dream world.

Expression of my thoughts.. ( 20.06.2009)

2009-06-29T23:47:00.000-07:00

Emotions have sunk deep inside my soul,
and how dearly i feel for you,
how i think about you every single moment of the day..

It is my mind that diverts all my thoughts towards you,
and my heart that beats with every thought
that goes around you.

U had what i wanted in you,
And what i heard from you has deeply hurt my soul,
I have wounds soo deep,
I can never forget..

But still i dont hate you at all,
Sometimes I ask my self "WHY"
When you have hurt me, and
There's not much i can say,
All i have is a bunch of words,
but sentences have Faded away..

MY DARLING MOON ( 29.06.2009)

2009-06-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

What if i could climb those steps that can take me to the stars..

I would sit with my darling moon,
telling him all the stories of my life,
and my dreams and desires..

I would tell him,
How i follow him every single night,
and go off to sleep after mid night,
When he hides behind those naughty clouds..

I would tell him,
How i love his smile,
That Dainty smile,
which every child loves..

I would let him know,
Of all the stories that,
my mother told me about him,
and tell him.. how much i miss him.

What a day it would be!!!
Alone,in the pleasent breeze..
away from the worldly noises, in the cool light of my darling moon,
i would sit down to narrate,
How much i love him..

I wish. if i were a star,
So i could be around my moon every single moment of my life,

Blessed will be the day,
When i will be with my moon..

In the peace that surrounds my Darling moon,

I would find my solace,
To never come back to this world of noises again..

DREAMS (23.06.2009)

2009-06-29T22:58:00.000-07:00

Dreams are what we live for,
Dreams are what we die for,
Dreams are the real life my dear friend,
Dreams are the life and breath.

To discover a new dream,
and cherish moments of labur,
to work for your aim and,
reach your goal is just awsome.

Wonderful ...it is indeed,
to forget all the pain,
To let all your memories take a back seat,
and work harder than ever to reach where your aims are..

Yes it is a blessing in disguise,
I know it is,When i come back from work every single day,
and i know that i have tried to forget you.

Yes i did it,
Proved fatal... thats another story.

Dreams are what gives us pain too,
Gives us memories,
Gives us unforgettable smiles,
and also the pain of missing some one..

So, what are dreams??
To sum up,
They are what shapes up our life,
and what motivates us to live, to laugh
To smile for others,
To forget our pain for the ones you love, and
To live for those who love you for what you are..

MOMENTS...(21.06.2009)

2009-06-29T22:22:00.001-07:00

Some sad,Some lonely
Some precious,Some unforgettable

Some stolen from you and
some spent in the deep thoughts about you.
Some so lonely,yet somuch near you
in my dreams..and my imagination that flies with wings when i am with you.

Thats being in love..
What a world it is,
M happy and smiles are seen on every face i see,
happiness i feel in every heart.

Moments and moments are all that make life soo beautiful..

Some that i spent trying to fall in love..
Some that i spent in missing you..
Some that i spent in your thoughts..
Some that i spent waiting for your call..
Some that i spent in trying to understand "IT" all..
and also those..
That i spent alone trying to solve the puzles of time..
Those that i spent in wonderng "HOW"..
Those that i spent alone trying to know "WHY"..
Those that i spent trying to explain "IT"..
And then
Those that i spent trying to forget WHAT,WHY,HOW and IT all..

Moments are all that makes life soo beautiful..

Those that i Cherish,
Those that i Miss,
Those that i feel Happy about,
Those that i can never Forget,
Those,that are engraved on my Soul,

Those which have gone to never relive anymore..
Those that i want to relive once more..
Those that i dreamt about..
Those that make me cry..
Those that make me feel so restless..
Thos that have hurt me..
Those which again and again come to my mind and do not go at all..

Those that i would never want to forget..
Those which i say i have forgotten..

Those which are so much within me still..
And how can i forget "IT" all??
It is what i know i want,
It is a part of my life..

Moments,these MOMENTS have made my life beautiful..

{It took me about 30 days to write this poem...}

A Beautiful Dream..(10 apr 2009)

2009-06-29T01:42:00.000-07:00

Aey ajnabi terey tasavurr mei dekh

ye kaisi deewangi se guzar raha hu

chand taron ka haseen saath hai aur,mai tumhey soch raha hu.

Thandi hawa key in jhokon mein mai,humein dhundh raha hu

Thamey huey en khayalo ko mai kuch yun sapney bun raha hu

chandani sey roshan khayalon mein...

kahin taron ki chamak bhi hai aur merey khayalon mein aney waley us pal kitasweer si hai

Muskura kar jab mujhe ek jhokey ne dekha ..

Takra kar mujhe khawabon se jaga gaya

aur apney sapno ki duniya sey mai laut key wapas aa gaya

chandani aur bhi raoshan thi wahan

damakta tha dur tak har katra jahan

aur ab muskura kar wapas us chand ko dekh raha hu

kahan hai wo lamha yepooch raha hu...

Your Dream..(16 apr 2009)

2009-06-29T01:28:00.000-07:00

In this beautiful night,along the shore m alone tonight

Here,where waves r my companion,i walk alone and cherish a dream.

A dream to cm true smday,wish if i were wd u.

To hold this breeze forever in our arms and let it not go anywhere beyond our dream world.

wish i could just walk my way wd sm1 like u...*u* who is my angel.

Can i hold your hands ?can i look in your eyes tonight?can i spend my life wd sm1 like u?

*u* who is my angel..

can i just say nothing,no words...no whispers....no sound but yet tell u how i feel...

can i just murmer my deepest thoughts in your ears and let u know how dearly i miss u in such a breeze and moonlit night?

Alone and away from the world and its noise how dearly i wish my dream to come true...

Oh! m so much in love wd my own world of dreams and *u* who is my angel..every breeze that srikes my soul tells me * i miss u*..

Hii every one :)

2009-06-29T00:25:00.000-07:00

Hello Everybody :0)
Thanx for sparing your time.
I have created this blog so that i can share my thoughts wd u all.It is a way i have chosen to give my frndz a chance to know me a bit better.Herein i will publish my poems and articles that so far i have written in my diary.
As a person i m friendly and yes i kow that i talk a lot...bt only my best frnds know that i express my self more through my poems and m nt dat vocal.It is not that i dont understand or i dont pay attention to the details but only that i am a normal introvert girl when it comes to expressing myself vocally :)
The poems i write express my thoughts and also that of my friends.Many a times i write for my friends as well.
So far i have written about 150 poems( as on 29 june 2009).Most of them are romantic poems ;)
Hope u will enjoy reading my creations.Critical comments and other comments are welcome.please let me know where i am going wrong or what improvements do u want to see in the next poems.U can also let me know about any situation that u face,any dream that u have,your own thoughts and i will try to write for u as well.
Waiting for your comments and guidance...

Words of my Soul

I love you Darling Husband

Happiness ! Please define.

Life's Good L Ji

I am Happy again !

F!@#$%^ Lyf.

Voice of my "HEART" (17.05.2009)

"LET Me EmBrAce ThE WoRld"

Lovely NI8

*EyEs Dat SpEaK* !!!

THE WORDS OF MY SOUL 4 "U" (7.7.2009)

The Promise ( 7.7.2009)

Your Smile :-) ( 03.07.2009)

25.05.2009

25.05.2009

25.05.2009

1.06.2009

1.06.2009

16.06.2009

Expression of my thoughts.. ( 20.06.2009)

MY DARLING MOON ( 29.06.2009)

DREAMS (23.06.2009)

MOMENTS...(21.06.2009)

A Beautiful Dream..(10 apr 2009)

Your Dream..(16 apr 2009)

Hii every one :)

EyEs Dat SpEaK !!!